Today, I yelled at God. I had gone out for a brisk walk to try to reconnect with myself. As walked, all sorts of emotions began to arise. Frustration and anger came up big time and I found myself raging at God along the lines of…
- “I’m doing great work – I’m successfully helping others to transform their lives. So, why can’t I make a living?!! What is it I have to do???!
- “Give me a clear plan of action, dammit! I’m fed up with guessing and then scrabbling to make a measly living! And I’m not even doing that successfully – Money is pouring out and none is coming in, even though you promised me that by giving I would be rewarded. Yes I am rewarded: emotionally and spiritually, but godammit, I need some fricking income too!!! I have to have income now. This is ridiculous – I’m giving to everyone, but myself.
- “Surely, that’s not the Divine Plan! And I can’t keep this up. If I don’t get some money – and enough money – before the end of the month, why should I continue helping everyone else? I refuse to do any more until I get appropriate compensation. Where’s my 10-fold return??? Show me the MONEY!!
- “You said You love me. Well, prove it! Give me what I need here. Give me some help. I’m struggling to make ends meet – I have to have income, I can’t just keep throttling my expenses to nothing – food costs money, shelter costs money. I can’t stop eating or live on the streets and still follow my purpose helping others. That’s ridiculous. It means I join those who are drowning. How does that help anyone??? Surely, that can’t be Your Will!
- “I want to finally have money – yes, in huge amounts for a change! I want to be able to waste it outrageously on stupid things, just because I can! Not that I will waste it, I probably wouldn’t, but I want to at least have the option to waste it!!”
I ranted and raved out loud, punctuating my speech with choice four-letter words and gesticulating wildly in the air. As I fumed and sputtered in rage, I slowly became aware that some part of my consciousness was chuckling.
“What’s so damn funny? How can you laugh at this?” I demanded.
“You have to admit it is pretty hilarious,” said the Voice in my head, barely containing its mirth.
As I listened, I began to laugh, too. First, because I must look like a raving lunatic! And secondly, because a part of me realized I had forgotten my creative power.
“God has already given you Everything. What MORE can He give you?
“What do you mean everything? How can that be when I can’t even make a decent living??? He must hate me.”
“God loves you! He wants you to have Everything your little heart desires!”
“Oh yeah, sure. He’s got a funny way of showing it.” I snorted!
I sensed more gentle chuckling. Then the Voice continued…
“He’s given you the Law of Attraction, so you CAN have everything you want. Absolutely anything and everything. No judgements. All you have to do is use it! God can’t do it for you. He’s created the law, and it DOES work.
“Now it’s up to you to use it correctly by focusing on what you WANT, rather than what’s not working in your life. That’s how it operates. It’s operating even now – you are attracting financial problems because you are so focused on money flowing out, rather than in.
“He has given you everything you need to change your Reality. But you have to use your free will to decide what you want to create. Where’s the fun in living, if God does it all for you? How can you ever learn to create, when you abdicate your creative power to God?
“No, in His Infinite Wisdom and Love, He wants you to learn by experimenting. It’s the only way you will truly own it. Do you remember setting the intention that you wanted to master the Law of Attraction?”
“Yes,” I replied, feeling a tad sheepish.
“Well, all true learning comes from direct experience. Don’t give up. Keep experimenting. Have you been spending five minutes a day visualizing what you actually want?”
“Er, no.”
“Have you been acknowledging your successes and the income you DO receive with gratitude?”
“Uh…no, again.”
“Well, God has already done His part. Now it’s time for you to do yours. You can’t abdicate your free will and responsibility for creating the life you want. It doesn’t work like that.
“To create a specific result, the Law of Attraction requires your conscious involvement. Otherwise, all you get is the default result of your and everyone else’s miscellaneous thoughts and emotions. And you can imagine the results – they aren’t pretty.”
“OMG! You are right! One look at our unconscious world shows what a mess we are making of things by refusing to own our collective creative responsibility.”
“Yes, and in the microcosm of your own life, too. But take heart. The Law of Attraction is completely impersonal and works whether you use it consciously or not…”
“So, how is that supposed to encourage me?”
“It means that all you need to do is grasp the reins of your mind and start steering it in the direction you want and the Law of Attraction will do the rest. Isn’t that exciting?”
“Yes, it is! Wow! The possibilities are starting to filter through to me. So here I was holding the Magic Aladdin’s Lamp with no 3-wish limit and raving at God (who gave us this marvellous gift) just because He wasn’t doing it all for me. Duh!”
“And it takes so little to steer the course of your life in a completely new direction. Five minutes a day focussing on what you want and pretending to actually have it – just five minutes. Is that so hard?”
“No, actually, I guess not. So it’s up to me then, is it?”
“Of course. That’s what makes it so much more meaningful and rewarding when you succeed. PLEASE, do yourself a huge favour and do the 5 minutes a day. Don’t just talk about it or theorize. Actually do it. Make time for it. It’s the most important item on your To-Do list. Put it at the top and follow through. Even if you do nothing else all day, do that.”
“But I have to earn a living,” I whined.
“Yes, so visualize having a living, a glorious one, I might add. And if you feel resistance to doing the 5 minutes a day, visualize being able to do that exercise easily and so enjoying the process that it becomes the best part of your day. Start now to create a new habit that will serve you for the rest of your life!”
So, after this message, my heart opened. I felt inspired and empowered. It felt do-able. I felt I have the full creative freedom to earn money any way I want, or even just to receive it in the form of gifts or grants. It doesn’t matter. My choice. Or even better, let go of the how’s and just imagine enjoying the fruits of having money. Focus on what I want it for. That will bring it faster.
How about you? Are you doing your 5 minutes a day? How is that working for you? Please comment – I’d love to hear your experiences.
